There’s no doubt in my mind that music and sounds, in general, affect us all on some level. It can be used to trigger certain moods or to ponder on things, even for meditation purposes. How does it get a hold of my spongey Borderline mind? Let’s find out. The power of sound During the…
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One Borderline’s Twisted Body Image
In this post, I will take a look at how I view myself through the Borderline’s eyes, and how my relationship with my body has developed since I started my healing journey. DISCLAIMER: This post talks about topics related to eating disorders and self-harm. My Background For those who are just coming to this blog,…
Tripple Threat of Triggers
In this post, I will talk a little bit about my Triple Threat of Triggers, the TTT, also known as vulnerabilities. These three things have been present throughout my Borderline journey, for better and for worse. DISCLAIMER: Contains talk of substance abuse, eating disorders, etc. Blessed intoxication As many of you may know, BPD (Borderline…
The Void
The other day I felt extremely dissociative, and soon after, I fell into a pit in my mind I had never before had the pleasure to observe fully. I would like to do my best to depict that state I was in, the state I have since then started calling “The Void”. What is The…
Life Traps | Pt. 36: Child’s needs
We have gone through almost half of the book, and soon it’s time to start digging into my childhood and possibly to cause some irritation in my parents as I go through tests and the like to figure out what I lacked in the past. But before that, I want to take a moment to…
Life Traps | Pt. 35: If I was a parent
This post is a contemplation on the things I would do differently if I was ever going to be a mother. About the things I’d teach them, the ways I’d try to educate them, and how I would act in contrast to the adults in my childhood. About the kind of things I would like…
Life Traps | Pt. 34: The Bullying never ends
This post is a continuation of the previous installment of the Life Trap series, “Bullying Begins”. In this second part, I will be talking about bullying during my adult life, both in the schooling system and work environment. I will also dare look into the bullies within the familiar circles, as the pandemic of meanery…
What it was like to be 130 KG
Sometimes things go sideways for us – a high-achieving girl competing in swimming turns into a depressed, even lazy, couch potato. When my mental health started to twindle, my physical wellness went with it. I gained kilos to the point of not being able to move due to the issues weight can bring with it….
Life Traps | Pt. 33: Bullying Begins
In the next two posts, I take a look at one of the more persisting issues of our world: Bullying. I’ll talk about it all the way from my kindergarten days to adulthood, as it has been a key ingredient in how I ended up and is something to be talked about – preferably as…
Life Traps | Pt. 32: Freeflow depiction of my childhood
One of the questions mentioned in the book (Tunne Lukkosi by Kimmo Takanen) is ‘How would you write about your childhood?’. And well, since I’m a writer, I figured this would be the perfect exercise for me! So here goes, buckle up for roughly a thousand words on the topic of ‘Mrs. Vana’s Childhood’. My…