The book says that if we’ve learned to forget bad things from the past, we are likely still trying to do it when we are adults. In today’s post, I will look at some of the things I might want to forget, although most of the things I’ve truly cast from my mind happened during…
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Life Traps | Pt. 30: An unpleasant memory
In this post, I will be taking a trip into the darker side of my memories to contrast the previous installment in the series, and see what I can find out. I will take a moment to recall what it was like as a child, to go through my parent separation, and then see what…
Life Traps | Pt. 29: Journey to a few pleasant places
In this post, I will be taking a trip to some places and situations/activities in my past that I enjoyed, trying to recall what it was like in those moments. It is a part of the mental practices pictured in the book “Tunne Lukkosi” by Kimmo Takanen. Fishing In my childhood, we used to go…
Life Traps | Pt. 28: Memories of childhood
The time has come to get into the part of this journey that I have not been looking forward to – my childhood. Nobody in my family is fond of me writing about these topics, the least of all me. But alas, I have BPD and the typical reasons for someone to have this affliction…
Life Traps | Pt. 26: Talking about the fulfillment of my needs
In this post, I will take a closer look at my needs and ponder how they have been fulfilled in my life. This line of thinking has an imperative role in my marriage, as I have difficulty voicing out my wants on the assumption that I don’t really know what it is I desire in…
Life Traps | Pt. 25: The Reign of Emotion
When emotion takes over it can lead to catastrophic results and severe exhaustion at the end of an episode. I wanted to take a little bit of a deeper look into my emotional responses before I continue forward in the book. Bear with me, this might get a little bit ugly. DISCLAIMER: This post contains…
Life Traps | Pt. 24: Self-fulfilling prophesies
Many of the sources I’ve encountered during my search for a more balanced mind have come to the same conclusion: What we think we are and what our heading is will become true. When we start believing that we are at the bottom, that’s where we will be. And when we start thinking and eventually…
5 Borderline Limits I had in 2020
We all have limits, whether imposed on us by ourselves or others. In the year 2020, I had several critical things that I could not cope with, no matter what. Things that made me fall into panic and Borderline episodes of rage and mania, fear and defense. This post will give you a glimpse at…
Life Traps | Pt. 23: Roots of my Fear of abandonment
In this post, I would like to take a moment to inspect one of the core aspects of my Borderline Personality Disorder: the fear of abandonment. I’m headed into a section of the book (Tunne Lukkosi by Kimmo Takanen) that talks about self-fulfilling prophecies, and before going into it I felt like needed to address…
Why I started hating my Birthday
In this post, I would like to talk a little bit about the magic of birthdays, or rather the lack thereof. My childhood is colored by my mother’s amazing cakes, yet, the celebrations turned into a time of discomfort and anxiety as I grew older. DISCLAIMER: This post contains descriptions that may trigger people with…