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All my life, I have been avoiding the “bad” or “negative” feelings such as anger or frustration. Or at least tried not to show them. By doing so I ended up experiencing bursts of absolutely terrifying blind rage and more, all the way to the sensation of being nothing but an insignificant spec of dust…
All my life I have been a people pleaser. I swam for my father, got good grades in school mostly out of fear of having to sit at the desk instead of going out with to play with friends, and even went to school for waitressing for three years to try and make someone else’s…
I’ve often been faced with declarations that frown upon people calling those that committed or are prone to committing suicide selfish. In this article, I will give you my view and some of my reasons for them. WARNING: This article contains talk of self-harm, suicide, etc. Why should I have a say in the matter?…
This time I would like to talk about my habit of getting distracted and avoiding all the things that need to be done – Sometimes even things that I want to do, such as writing! While it is definitely procrastination in parts, it is also due to my borderline mind that I keep doing it….
In this post, I would like to talk about some of the hurdles I’ve come across during our streaming sessions. For those that don’t yet know, we (my husband and I) actually started streaming our gaming evenings on Twitch some time ago. The Public Space I think most of us know that being in a…
There’s no doubt in my mind that music and sounds, in general, affect us all on some level. It can be used to trigger certain moods or to ponder on things, even for meditation purposes. How does it get a hold of my spongey Borderline mind? Let’s find out. The power of sound During the…
In this post, I will take a look at how I view myself through the Borderline’s eyes, and how my relationship with my body has developed since I started my healing journey. DISCLAIMER: This post talks about topics related to eating disorders and self-harm. My Background For those who are just coming to this blog,…
In this post, I will talk a little bit about my Triple Threat of Triggers, the TTT, also known as vulnerabilities. These three things have been present throughout my Borderline journey, for better and for worse. DISCLAIMER: Contains talk of substance abuse, eating disorders, etc. Blessed intoxication As many of you may know, BPD (Borderline…
The other day I felt extremely dissociative, and soon after, I fell into a pit in my mind I had never before had the pleasure to observe fully. I would like to do my best to depict that state I was in, the state I have since then started calling “The Void”. What is The…
We have gone through almost half of the book, and soon it’s time to start digging into my childhood and possibly to cause some irritation in my parents as I go through tests and the like to figure out what I lacked in the past. But before that, I want to take a moment to…