All things Borderline Personality Disorder and living with it.
This time I would like to talk about my habit of getting distracted and avoiding all the things that need to be done – Sometimes even things that I want to do, such as writing! While it is definitely procrastination in parts, it is also due to my borderline mind that I keep doing it….
In this post, I would like to talk about some of the hurdles I’ve come across during our streaming sessions. For those that don’t yet know, we (my husband and I) actually started streaming our gaming evenings on Twitch some time ago. The Public Space I think most of us know that being in a…
In this post, I will take a look at how I view myself through the Borderline’s eyes, and how my relationship with my body has developed since I started my healing journey. DISCLAIMER: This post talks about topics related to eating disorders and self-harm. My Background For those who are just coming to this blog,…
In this post, I will talk a little bit about my Triple Threat of Triggers, the TTT, also known as vulnerabilities. These three things have been present throughout my Borderline journey, for better and for worse. DISCLAIMER: Contains talk of substance abuse, eating disorders, etc. Blessed intoxication As many of you may know, BPD (Borderline…
The other day I felt extremely dissociative, and soon after, I fell into a pit in my mind I had never before had the pleasure to observe fully. I would like to do my best to depict that state I was in, the state I have since then started calling “The Void”. What is The…
Sometimes things go sideways for us – a high-achieving girl competing in swimming turns into a depressed, even lazy, couch potato. When my mental health started to twindle, my physical wellness went with it. I gained kilos to the point of not being able to move due to the issues weight can bring with it….
We all have limits, whether imposed on us by ourselves or others. In the year 2020, I had several critical things that I could not cope with, no matter what. Things that made me fall into panic and Borderline episodes of rage and mania, fear and defense. This post will give you a glimpse at…
In this post, I would like to talk a little bit about the magic of birthdays, or rather the lack thereof. My childhood is colored by my mother’s amazing cakes, yet, the celebrations turned into a time of discomfort and anxiety as I grew older. DISCLAIMER: This post contains descriptions that may trigger people with…
Disclaimer & Trigger warning: The following article touches on topics such as trauma, self-harm, and suicidal tendencies. It is purely based on my own experiences in the realm of psychotic symptoms, and as per the golden rule of any mental disorder, the symptoms vary based on the individual. Not once have I heard of two…
Disclaimer: this happened while I was between the ages of 18 to 29. After that, I got married and now have my husband helping me and backing me up with health care. I have since been to some DBT and other forms of care. It took me a solid decade to even get a guess…