I have gone through a variety of phases in my life regarding religion. I was born into a Lutheran family (albeit not very religious). This means that I went through the hoops of being a part of the Christian congregation due to that being the norm at the time. I fell from grace in my teen years and pretty much denounced the existing systems. Where do I stand now concerning organized religion? Read on to find out.
If you follow me on Twitter (X), you might know that I don’t subscribe to any mainstream religion. Ever since I divorced the Lutheran Church, I have been on a Path of my own. Something unique to me, and unlike anything I’ve found anywhere else. I don’t intend to go back to any of the organizations, either. Instead, I will study the ancient holy stories (all of them, including the ‘heathen’ ones) and customs, and learn from them as much as I can.
I used to believe
As a child, I used to recite a prayer before bed:
“Let everything stay the same. I wish everyone good night and good morning. Let my dad, mum, sister, and if you like, me, stay safe and wake up healthy. And let no fires come.”
You can tell I was terrified of change, as it was turning my whole life upside down. And fires. Let’s not forget about the fires. It was my worst fear for a long while.
When my life took a turn for the worse, I found myself talking to God more. Well, it was more like screaming and crying, what with all the pain I was going through. He was my solace, my only thread of hope in the world of chaos that aimed to engulf me.
In school, we always had to attend mandatory church visits at Christmas and the end of the school year. I found them boring, but somehow solemn at the same time. The Church buildings themselves demand respect with their grandiosity. Maybe that was one of the problems for me.
It seemed off that the ones supposed to be humble were laced in gold and nice fabrics. And that the holy places were splurged on with mosaic windows and elaborate paintings. And then there was the whole Christ thing. Something was off about a man being treated like God. I never prayed to God in any other name but my own. Why would I?
Losing faith in the System
My faith in the Lutheran system (as that was the only one I knew for a while) started crumbling. The discrimination of the Church, the hateful behavior of the followers of Christ, and the crusades. How could I not doubt the dogma? When I saw my sister deprived of the blessings of her godchild when she went through the hoops, I was livid. You see, my sister had divorced the churched, and so, was not allowed to bless the child. They ousted her. And I was disgusted.
The worst hit to my faith, however, was my mental health. As I plummeted to the depths of the Ocean of Chaos, The Maw nearly swallowed me. I lost sight of everything, including God. Mind you, my spirituality stayed. And as we can see from societies, if humankind doesn’t have anything better to worship, it turns to stupidity and delusion. Much like the people who figured they’d cough up a golden calf.
What followed was the era of devil worship, in the lack of better words. I would talk to the dead, see them everywhere, and take part in all sorts of false things. My hedonism bloated my body into a land orca and corrupted my mind. God was absent. Or so I thought.
Finding my way back to God
Even if my husband wasn’t from another culture, he would’ve affected me. He is rational, terrifyingly logical even. But, he is also a Jew. And boy, have I learned some realities of this world by being with him. Things I never dreamed of touching I have now become familiar with. The evil of mankind is among those things. And of course, I became intrigued by his heritage.
As we have established, I was always a spiritual person. I prayed to God, and even when I turned away from him, I found another religion to follow. No matter how delusional it was. I also always had an empty void inside me, let’s call it BPD, as it sums it up nicely. Who knew that Judaism would be the thing to break me out of the darkness?
The thought of one God, and nothing between me and him was refreshing. The revolutionary words of a Rabbi ‘You are needed’, brought me to my knees. I had abandoned God. Not the other way around. I knew He was there, always. I had hurt Him terribly, that much was clear. So, I started making my way back to God. Slowly at first, and then at full speed. These days I do my best to walk by Him, come what may.
My concept of God is that of something higher than ourselves. Higher than humanity. This means that no man (or woman for that matter) can ever come close to that being. This Concept covers all known deities around the world and even across galaxies. Who are we to say that something all-powerful like God wouldn’t manifest in different ways in all the world? There is wisdom everywhere, ancient wisdom.
When we humans elevate one of our own to the divine realm, above others, it is a blatant call to tyranny. Not only that, it gives an excuse to the followers to start killing anyone who isn’t of ‘us’. Crusades and terrorism come to mind. By elevating one man over the rest, you give the keys to that man. I will not be doing that. Remember this, dear reader, there’s nothing between you and God. We all have a piece of Him with us, let’s call it Life.
With tyrants comes misery. Slavery, pointless wars, and many families of even royalty have perished due to the delusional elevation of humans to divinity. Stop worshipping humanity. We are gnarly, detestable creatures. And yet, we are needed, and our efforts to become better are revered. We should aim higher in Truth.
Religions of death are not True
Life is the most precious thing we have. We are born without the magical consent, and we die without it. Anything or anyone who deems fit to play with it is false. Me included. It took my husband’s anger to finally snap me out of the selfishness of trying to murder myself. The arrogance I had, thinking that this life is mine to do with as I please.
Thankfully, there are not many cults these days that encourage death. May my ignorance be bliss in this matter, as I can only come up with one religion that celebrates the deaths of innocents, and of their own. Though, of course, I am well aware of the evils such as the Jonestown cult, that would lead masses of people to ingest cyanide.
Any such organization or system that threatens Life and its objective reality ought to be denounced. They do nothing but harm humanity. And the most concerning thing is that as people have abandoned God, they have turned to worldly things, or worse, themselves.
The new religions of the world
We humans are splendid at imagining all sorts of crazy things. And while many atheists would argue that all religions are such, bigger threats than tradition exist. Once we abandon the thought of a higher goal or a model, what is left to lead us? Our own whim? Come now, the people who came before us were smarter than that. Let us not fall behind our ancestors.
The world as it is has spawned so many ideologies and contemporary religions that it’s a wonder how we still stand. We have everything from flat earthers, doomsday cults, witches, Wokes to race enthusiasts. How is any of this helping anyone? Personally, I do not appreciate humanity catering to delusion and mental illness (being mental myself). Not every whim or thought needs to be validated as truth. ‘Live your truth’ is such bad advice, helping people get even more narcissistic and weak.
All we have to do is look at the world now and take a glimpse some hundred or two years back. People were stronger, mentally and physically. We weren’t protecting terrorists or mutilating children due to feelings. We had integrity, understood the importance of the family unit, and worked together to build a better place for our children. Now the world is so off and chaotic that it terrifies me sometimes. I have faith, however, that once enough people wake up to the situation, it will start to veer straight.
What do I think about organized religion?
In my journey through philosophy, religion, and psychology, I have found that only one has struck me so far. The Jews are among the ancient peoples of the planet, their ways older than we can ever know. Two of the world’s major religions base themselves on them and their accounts of history. Plus they welcome questions and critique regarding the logic of their faith. I have been impressed by the Rabbis, as I’ve never witnessed anything like them from the Christian priests. But then again, Finnish priests are university-trained and get paid to be priests. This, of course, is iffy in itself.
I’ve also looked into some Eastern faiths, such as Taoism, which I am quite fond of. The thought of order and chaos, and traversing in the middle, strikes a chord with me. Once I finish my readings of the Abrahamic holy books, I will likely move toward the East. And after that, I might just look into pagan religions. I wonder what my Shamanistic, nature-worshipping ancestors were all about! Other than troll cats and spells and the lady of the forest.
What I can say for sure is, that the Western systems are not for me. I don’t subscribe to modern ideologies, having once been a part of the whole gender/sex cult. I won’t follow the road of Atheism, as having something above myself is crucial to my existence. And I won’t be going back to Christianity, nor will I ever become Muslim. The two are too filled with blood lust and they revere their humans too highly. As for Judaism, well, I thought of it once. But it was not meant to be.
I will walk my own path
The wise woman that I am, I will walk in search of knowledge and adopt that which is good. Let us not fool ourselves, we all know what good is. It is not incitement to violence based on the person’s faith or lack thereof. It is not the butchery of children in the face of the trans-woke mob’s pressure. And it is certainly not the worship of oneself as the most high, as many have come to believe. Life isn’t here to serve you. You are here to serve It.
My God is beyond the average person’s rationale. Because He actually covers everything. Every culture, every person, every story and invention. The wisdom of Life can be found everywhere, so, it would be foolish to turn away from any ancient story or tradition. Our society has been built on the principles of the past. Why are people so keen on trying to destroy it all, thinking they know better?
There are jewels in every ancient way and it would be utter stupidity not to learn from them. I also urge you, my dear reader, to look outside your own box. Open your eyes and see what is and what isn’t true. Objectively true.
And while I can’t tell you that my way is the way, I can assure you of this one thing:
If you follow Life in all its glory, without trying to fight or twist it to fit your whimsical, emotional wants, you will certainly thrive.