The other day I felt extremely dissociative, and soon after, I fell into a pit in my mind I had never before had the pleasure to observe fully. I would like to do my best to depict that state I was in, the state I have since then started calling “The Void”. What is The…
Life Traps | Pt. 36: Child’s needs
We have gone through almost half of the book, and soon it’s time to start digging into my childhood and possibly to cause some irritation in my parents as I go through tests and the like to figure out what I lacked in the past. But before that, I want to take a moment to…
Twitter Tales | The List 1
This post is the beginning of a deeper look into a thread I shall call The List. I had some grievances about this particular topic and the way people responded to it and decided to take this opportunity to talk about toxicity, the meaning of words, and the fragile human ego. The Check List The…
Life Traps | Pt. 35: If I was a parent
This post is a contemplation on the things I would do differently if I was ever going to be a mother. About the things I’d teach them, the ways I’d try to educate them, and how I would act in contrast to the adults in my childhood. About the kind of things I would like…
Life Traps | Pt. 34: The Bullying never ends
This post is a continuation of the previous installment of the Life Trap series, “Bullying Begins”. In this second part, I will be talking about bullying during my adult life, both in the schooling system and work environment. I will also dare look into the bullies within the familiar circles, as the pandemic of meanery…
What it was like to be 130 KG
Sometimes things go sideways for us – a high-achieving girl competing in swimming turns into a depressed, even lazy, couch potato. When my mental health started to twindle, my physical wellness went with it. I gained kilos to the point of not being able to move due to the issues weight can bring with it….
Life Traps | Pt. 33: Bullying Begins
In the next two posts, I take a look at one of the more persisting issues of our world: Bullying. I’ll talk about it all the way from my kindergarten days to adulthood, as it has been a key ingredient in how I ended up and is something to be talked about – preferably as…
The secret of the mythical ”real people”
Internet dwellers, gamers, and other less traditionally socially inclined people have a rough time when being talked about in the ‘’real-life’’ circles. The people we talk to over the internet and know to be real human beings are often played down, and we are told to go out and make ‘’real friends’’. What are these…
Life Traps | Pt. 32: Freeflow depiction of my childhood
One of the questions mentioned in the book (Tunne Lukkosi by Kimmo Takanen) is ‘How would you write about your childhood?’. And well, since I’m a writer, I figured this would be the perfect exercise for me! So here goes, buckle up for roughly a thousand words on the topic of ‘Mrs. Vana’s Childhood’. My…
Roles in marriages (Spoilers: I’m a housewife!)
What are traditional family values? According to this dating site, there are many values that should be taken into account for both men and women in a traditional setting. While I agree with some of them, I certainly don’t think that they all apply in today’s world, especially in my case. A woman’s value is…