In this post, I would like to take a moment to inspect one of the core aspects of my Borderline Personality Disorder: the fear of abandonment. I’m headed into a section of the book (Tunne Lukkosi by Kimmo Takanen) that talks about self-fulfilling prophecies, and before going into it I felt like needed to address…
In this post, I would like to talk a little bit about the magic of birthdays, or rather the lack thereof. My childhood is colored by my mother’s amazing cakes, yet, the celebrations turned into a time of discomfort and anxiety as I grew older. DISCLAIMER: This post contains descriptions that may trigger people with…
In this post, I will look at one of the most hurtful parts about being Borderline, the fact that I take almost everything personally. Opinions, random happenings I had no control over, and much more fall on my shoulders daily. All of this relates heavily to my Life Traps that make me feel inferior, such…
For many of us, forming a family is the ultimate thing to do in life. Having a child is the goal we strive for, whether driven by social norms or just the biological pull of any species. But what if you are not in your right mind and balanced? Just don’t do it In short,…
In this post, I go a little bit deeper into the roles I’ve taken upon myself in my life. I will attempt to answer questions such as: What these roles are, How have they affected me, and what have they taught to those around me? The roles we have in our lives have a lot…
Playing games has been an integral part of our lives since we’ve known each other – After all, our first contact happened within the streets of Final Fantasy XIV’s Limsa Lominsa, one of the original main hubs of the game. Past that point, we game daily, sometimes together, sometimes side by side on our own,…
DISCLAIMER: This post contains topics such as suicide, abuse, and self-harm. Now that we’ve taken a quick look at the numerous Life Traps at hand, we can start dwelling deeper into the abyss of my mind in an attempt to find out how I can start unlocking the Traps. Together with gaining some understanding of…
Ah, modern feminism, that thorn that claims to be about equality, yet fails to actually advocate for the rights of all people. While in the past it was sorely needed to pass things such as giving women the right to vote, today feminism has turned into more of an excuse for women to behave poorly…
DISCLAIMER: This post includes talk that might trigger depressive thoughts. I have finally arrived at the last station of the depictions of the Life Traps, and as all of them tie together and enhance each other in my life, this last one often takes the cake. Heavily related to the Trap in the last post…
Speaking up, talking, telling people how I feel… It’s a struggle. Struggle so big that most of my life I never told anyone how I was really doing inside. Now I’m learning, and this is where my therapy-whale, Toofus, comes in! My little companion Across my time on this planet, I amassed quite the collection…